သြားမယ္ဆိုရင္ေတာ့ မတားလိုပါ ျပန္မယ့္သူကိုေတာ့လည္း ဆဲြမထားခ်င္ပါ ေဆာင္းအေငြ႕ေလးေတြျဖင့္ ရွႈရိွုက္လို႕မွ မ၀ေသးခင္ ေဆာင္းမနက္ခင္းေတြအျဖစ္ ႏိုးထလို႕မွ အားမရေသးခင္ ေဆာင္းေလေအးေတြရယ္ ေဆာင္းျမဴႏွင္းေတြရယ္က ေႏြဦးရဲ႕ေလရူးၾကားမွာ ကြယ္ေပ်ာက္သြားေတာ့မယ္လား။ ေနာင္ႏွစ္ခါ တစ္ေက်ာ့မျပန္ခင္ေတာ့ လြမ္း၍ေတာ့က်န္ရဦးမယ္။ ႏွင္းေ၀တဲ့ေဆာင္းရယ္ လြမ္းေပ်ာ္ေမြ႕ရင္း…။ စာၾကြင္း။ Inspired by တကၠသိုလ္ဘုန္းႏိုင္…
သူ တစ္စြန္းတစ္စ နဲ႔ ပါပါလာတာ အေတာ္ ၾကာေပါ့ ။
အခုေတာ့ မပါမျဖစ္တဲ့အစိတ္အပိုင္း တစ္ခုလို။
သူ႔အိပ္မက္ေတြနဲ႔ေတာ့ ကၽြန္မက မသက္ဆိုင္ခဲ့ပါ။
သူရဲ႕ “သူမ” က ကၽြန္မမွ မဟုတ္ပဲေလ။
စိတ္ကူးယဥ္တတ္တဲ့ အရင္းခံ ရွိတာ ကၽြန္မအမွားေပါ့။
ဒါေပမဲ့ စိတ္ကူးယဥ္ျဖစ္ေအာင္ ဖန္တီးေပးတတ္တာေတြေတာ့
သူ႔ရဲ႕ အေပ်ာ္အပ်က္ ကတိေတြ အတြက္
သူ႔ရဲ႕ အိပ္မက္ေတြ တစ္ပုံႀကီးကိုလည္း
ကၽြန္မ ေစ့ေစ့ ရင္မဆိုင္ရဲျပန္ဘူး။
သူ႕ရဲ႕”သူမ” က ကၽြန္မမွမဟုတ္ခဲ့တာ…။
There was every reason to be besides him.
There was every reason to spend every moment with him.
There was every reason to nag at him , laugh at him, angry at him..
There was every reason to have fun with him.
There was every reason to fall in love with him but I didn’t need a reason.
I thought we were close, close enough for me not to wish for something else.
I thought I had all I could hope for.
It was when expectations, hope and greed came in.
I hoped for something more.
I was exhausted with expectations.
I was desperate with jealousy.
I would cry just at thoughts of him with another girl.
Just an irritated comment of him would ruin my day.
Just an appearance of him would make my day.
Life was him.
Joy was him.
Everything was him.
Although he was never mine.
When I realized he had been head over toes with his ex,
When I realized that he had a fling with another girl while I was always besides him,
When I realized that he met a new girl worth his love,
My heart was shattered, broken into a million pieces, but I had never been able to piece it back together.
All I could wish for was to move on, to get over all the memories with him as it was just a past.
He was my past, my love, my life.
After taking a long break from blogging on another site, I am tempted to start again. As usual, I like to talk about dramas, movies and sometimes books. Well, yes, this time is also about a Japanese movie that I have watched recently, called “Beyond … Continue reading Beyond the memories..